hmm...work today slightly busier..i like...in the morning..when alex force me to go fen flyers...i almost cried out..but of course i ren back..maybe only limin saw that..haha..its to this extent of fear i am facing...so dont need to advice me to go or anything..i know what alex wants to tell me..or rather what everyone is telling me..but like i said..its easy to say...but the barrier..remains..hard to break..i m not afraid of giving out flyers..i m afriad of alex..christmas..anyone..just anyone..looking at me giving out flyers..even if u are not looking..but i got the feel someone is looking..i backed down..same thing goes for collecting bills n stuff..the moment someone sees me doing all that..i wont do the normal stuff i do..dont ask me why ..i duno...i only know i lack confidence..maybe....tell me to relax..trying to...luckily after lunch..feel better..then i after that try to fen flyer when no one seeing..i did give it out..=)..happy!..n i super happy today cause i managed to push mocktail!..2!..yay!..haha first time i succeeded in pushing things sia...yay!..haha..

hate the fact that i m getting fatter..dont say i dont look fat ..cause fats can hide one..i m fat..60kg leh..dont say i tall!!..not an excuse..but i super super feel like eating these few days..cant stop...=(....save me!!..

missing sally..haha..

tired emotionally n mentally..in some things..k bb