mysilentworld

2010-02-08T23:21:00.001-08:00

talking about my work..think doro n tammy's going to quit...hmm..of course will miss the times where we laugh for some weird stuff n lame jokes as we worked tgt..but i also began to wonder how long can i survive for this job..getting more n more tiring as i work on, lesser time for my parents n for sleeping..getting bored for this job..what keeps me on..the smiles on the customer's faces?..n my friends over there..hates it when theres zero customers..nothing to do..stand there..i could fall alseep as i stand there...not doing anything..alex told us to find back our morale..act. i dun really get whats he's saying..hmm..to be more active?..to work faster..hmm...hope i could do better ..but i am happy i did improve alittle..got alittle braver..n learn to be more interactive?..i have nv thought i could overcome that barrier that fast..really..comparing to the me in the past..i changed alot..for the better or worse..u all decide..haha..

later going salon cut hair...scared..super super scared.!!..haha..yuri yuri i trust u!,..waa..phobia sia..haha..

haiz..daifang's present still with me..i super pro..keep her present dunno how long le..haha..sorry ar..

fat leee!!, grrr, no way!, that wont happen! hm!..

k, bb!..=) happy today! =)

2010-01-23T07:05:00.000-08:00

hmm...work today slightly busier..i like...in the morning..when alex force me to go fen flyers...i almost cried out..but of course i ren back..maybe only limin saw that..haha..its to this extent of fear i am facing...so dont need to advice me to go or anything..i know what alex wants to tell me..or rather what everyone is telling me..but like i said..its easy to say...but the barrier..remains..hard to break..i m not afraid of giving out flyers..i m afriad of alex..christmas..anyone..just anyone..looking at me giving out flyers..even if u are not looking..but i got the feel someone is looking..i backed down..same thing goes for collecting bills n stuff..the moment someone sees me doing all that..i wont do the normal stuff i do..dont ask me why ..i duno...i only know i lack confidence..maybe....tell me to relax..trying to...luckily after lunch..feel better..then i after that try to fen flyer when no one seeing..i did give it out..=)..happy!..n i super happy today cause i managed to push mocktail!..2!..yay!..haha first time i succeeded in pushing things sia...yay!..haha..

hate the fact that i m getting fatter..dont say i dont look fat ..cause fats can hide one..i m fat..60kg leh..dont say i tall!!..not an excuse..but i super super feel like eating these few days..cant stop...=(....save me!!..

missing sally..haha..

tired emotionally n mentally..in some things..k bb

2010-01-22T08:19:00.000-08:00

happy!!=)..today work past quite fast le..haha..really like my ksuites family!!..haha..ytd we off day..then me n limin go shop..n even went back to ksuites see them chat abit..haha..=)..n limin finally brought the working shoes =)..goodgood.hha..she wont emo le..she got a bad haircut..n she super emo on that day...but heng ok after that..haha..went to bugis junction shop..then go bugis street..n then waited for the rest of the ksuites workers to off work..then they go eat dinner..me n limin go home with mrt..n gossip..haha..

today...work..not really sian..but sales bad..christmas came back despite off day..weird sia he..haah..then i did a sotong thing again..haha..when i go clean the rooms..i took the controller..n forgot put back...i took almost three in my hand after cleaning three rooms..then i realise i have not been putting them back..haha..bread laughing like mad after that..ps la..haha..forgot ma..din realise..

room 27 got ghost..i also abit dont dare go in le..haha..when in the past..i dunno go in how many times le..being ignorant is always better..much better!!..haa..i now keep skipping that room sia..heh...ohh..cause yuri saw that ghost...heng not i see...phew....

everybody have their own sets of problems..their own challenges..

why i become s. sotong??..when??..i blur le..=.-

sally sally!..haha..random!..

2010-01-20T07:10:00.000-08:00

hmm..today work ar..super sian..=(..shien manage to make me laugh alittle..haha..n i am still the target fof being suaned..n stupid christmas..go away!!..he came very early then he looked at me say " i come to use facebook to suan u one"..wa..box him!!..haii..if he not tammy's scandal ..i confirm box him..evil man him!!..purposely leave me n him in the same room tgt..i initially abit about to be angry..but i think he din mean it..so din angry..he lucky!..haha..sometimes jokes cannot too overboard..thats what i think..

i realise everyone likes to come back to ksuites although off day..haha..thats what i like..like one big family like tt..=)..=)..=)..n i dunno since when i became "S. sotong.."..singapore sotong=.-..thanks man..lol..haha..now christmas nv call me emilyn le..now directly call me " sotong"..=.-..thanks ar!!..u n tammy..jy ar =P..

hmm..alex yooo..super emo..facebook very emo..but whenever i see him..he always give me the cheerful n happy look..super not emo leh..haha..so diff..

tammy - only came on sat n sun..haiz..really miss the past few days..where we laugh tgt..nowadays..hmm..haha..

shien - haha..my warm water bartender!..hehe..i just have to raise the glass up n look at her..she knows what i want le..haha!..tyty for all the water!...haha..

kk, bb!!..n vicky!..she another cute one!..haa..=) tml off day..i miss daddy=(

2010-01-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

today job quite fun..provided that i kana suan..n they laugh at me..=.-..hmm..really getting more n more sotong..dunno y sia..=.-..

in the morning n afternoon..not bad..very fun...chat chat..n laugh tgt..thats what i like..haha..but when ard 5-6..i get stress again..cause only 1 customer come in..n limin told me alex abit pek chek..or not happy ...then i stress le..cause i nv manage to pull any in..=(..haiz..always hai dao alex..who is so good to all of us..sorry alex...

in the afternoon..something sotong of me happened..cause alex order pizza ma..then put in one room..then everybody go inside eat..then cause i outside..so i go serve customer lo..then i bring the customer in to see the rooms..then i very stupidly go bring them see room 17(which is the room we use to eat our lunch n dinner de)..ahhh..i forgot!!!..cause at that time..i thought room 16 got people inside..so go room 17 lo..then i forgot room 17 cannot see one..end up everybody inside laugh at me..=.-..thanks ar..hai me laugh out when talking to customers after that..=.-..haha...

alot of funny things happening over there..love the atmosphere there except when it gets stress up..

hmm....get used to it..the key words.

k, bb!!

who can buy me fruits..??.or tell me bugis where got sell???..i want thank that person like mad..=(..getting unhealthy..=(

2010-01-13T07:36:00.000-08:00

hmm...today work abit sian..but then when sally n her bf came..brightens up my mood abit..=)..cause i slack n chat like mad..they act as customer..haha..but i officially slacking la..haha..shhsss..then after work..we go eat dinner tgt..the noodls okok only..but i like the cheese fishball thing..which sally accid. sqeeze all the cheese out on julian..hahaha..funny sia..jing dian de hua mian leh..haha..then after that i kana embarrass cause the half of the cheese is sticking out..lol..then after that julian also nv eat properly..lol..virus sia..it spreads..haha..sally's fault..haha..

i think i am not 100 % serious in my work..seriously i admit i m slacking..haha..what i know is i must do what i have to do..but when no customer..when giving flyers..i really quite slack..hmm..or rather cause i dont really dare give yet..so ya..

i got a strong feel i wont get into uni..with all the things happening..n everythings getting too well n lucky for me...except the attracting uncle part ..so ya..dunno la..but still i dun feel nervous at all..dunno y..missing my classmates suddenly..

hmm..excited for tml..finally have the chance to go back to ntuc..heheh..=)..yay!!..haiz..need go the stupid office again take uni..sian..n i am suaned dunno how many times for bringing nets and not cash to the office to pay for the uni..call me sotong all u like..=(..eeyer...

i like my working friends more n more each day..miss them sia..can sat faster come!!..n aaa..really sorry n ps..to xtrimas..maybe i should n't have said it out..sorrysorry.psps..=X..

k, bb..i realise..simple people with simple backgrounds think simple..n i like them =)

2010-01-12T07:49:00.001-08:00

long since i blog here..
so update abit here..hmm..working currently at illuma there..at ksuites..nice place to sing..if u willing to pay for it..haah..have been working for one week plus le..after that bread n limin join in..hmm...people's there very nice!..then like working there too...=)..its like work hard , play hard ba..haha..alex very flexible one..haha..wondering how's everybody doing..no class outing anything..abit sian..cant get photos..anyway now no time gather photos too..

only thing i hate abt work is that particular person..should n't sayit here..to be safe..k bb!..

n i need new songs..who can kindly send me songs please?..sobs..

k, bb!..=)

2009-12-29T07:11:00.000-08:00

super sian today..went all the way to taka to do the spa thing that i won from lucky draw..cause sis last min cannot go..so i went..end up..it has to be above 23 yrs old then can do..n worse..jiejie abit..hmm..its 22/12 go, but she saw it as 28 in stead..once in awhile ppl do blur abit..but then i bought my fav. jap noodle from taka..hehe..then something bad happen again..got caught by two pretend-to-be- surveyors...hong kong ppl..n they act super super friendly..n talked super loudly( asking me abt my life kind of qns)..but their loudness make me very embarrassing..imagine them talking so loud in public..n in the lift..n ppl are looking at me n them..=.-..very ps..they bluff me of my trust for them..they tell me its only a 5 min survey..so i thought 5 min only wont die..help them abit..n there goes my trust..when i walked up to their office..i know i m dead..its obvious what they are going to do next..sell their products..=.-..i feel like telling them "dun nit say anything..just say main point.."..but then i dun dare..so nvm..heard them pestering me for 1 hr..there goes my 1 hr..=.-...i think they cheat one lo..all the ppl they find are not those obese ppl..if u really intend to help ppl..should not they be looking for obese ppl??..n they say eat the pills will thin..n then say 6 hrs dont eat b4 sleeping..fei hua..i think is not the pills that make u slim..is own effort ba??..6 hrs dun eat..eat healthily..drink alot of water..who dunno..still dare tell me exercising wont reduce cholestrol..grr

then finally off to mrt..talked talked abit..then off home at ten =) have a nice chat =)..n i managed to scare her..haha..but then..despite all the scary things i heard of working at partyworld..i still feel like working there..there's alot of places hiring..but i dunno leh..nv step in to ask..haha.

dun like it when mum keep discouraging herself..i wonder why ppl like to compare so much..haiz..

daddy suan me..so bad..haha..i got read books one hor..=(..evil dad i have..haha
k, bb..fix my voice! =)

2009-12-21T07:24:00.000-08:00

these few days..have always been sleeping late..ard 2-3am?..so tend to wake up late too..n by then i wake up..dad went to work..lesser time seein him..n i din realise..plus everyday come home ard 9-10 plus..the most see him once then back to room..nv pei him watch show..=(..i din realise this till he said something today..cause i today came back earlier, ard 9.30..then dad purposely eat outside..n purposely come to sit with me, watch show..normally he will watch in room one..then he look at me n said " must pei nu er, pei yang gang qing"..then i started thinking..i may have neglected him abit..sis once asked me a qn..she say if u everyday got sth on, will u purposely leave time out to pei daddy?..i hope i have, but saying is easy afterall

got all the christmas present ready..first time i buy presents..act. i got buy, but normally is cause the person got give me..i dun really have the idea of celebrating christmas..dun find it impt..i not christian anyway..so to me..hai hao only..i only think new year ( cause got ang bao) n bday is impt..maybe valentine's day in future, n dad's bday..the rest like christmas..hari raya..to me..is just a day..

bought sth for daifang's bday, but cannot say here, haha later she know..hope i have the stamina to finish it..hopefully haha..

went gym n also brought all the presents n some other things today, finally ate subway n my cai fan..haha..crave long le..

i dun want drift!! =(

kbox!

quality more impt than quatity..thats what i always believe in..

jobs?..heng dad nv nag at me..jiejie sabo me sia..haha..but lucky dad nv say anything..haha..lazy..can next yr then find..haha..have not slack enough..

bb n nite!

2009-12-17T06:50:00.000-08:00

hmm..genting trip with daddy n sally..dun ask me why got this weird combi...long story..haa..daddy shyshy..dont want take photos..haha..n daddy hor..can lose soo much money just by gambling..better dont sell me away one day..or i will emoo, haha

want go see ah seng..but i dun dare..last time is cause got zhi hao..i dare go see him n can see him..now cannot sia..=(...haiz..howhow?..

no luck..agency called me to do the flyer distribution job..8 dollars per hr i think..but i rejected..call me choosy..haha..i want long term work n stable job..not this type.. n i work for exp., so i chose not to do it..the people who called me rude can..why do i always get jobs that isn't as good one..=(..ah ber so good, got the data entry job..although she say its boring..haha..n keep saying its a long story!!..lol, nvm i will know that long story sooner or later, haha

lucky to be in spore, wont survive out there..i want to be in local uni..n ppl thought i could..but..over-estimated by ability..hmm..hope really can get in..even if its by luck..must..

i thinking..when one hopes to be a volunteer..is it a hope to compensate for the wrongdoings or to be sincere?..

out tml..n i forgot to buy her bday present..dead..=(

i want eat taka's noodle!!..n waffle from bb..=(

everyone have their way of self-protection..it may be wrong..but its the only way to feel more secure..more respected

bb

2009-12-09T15:26:00.001-08:00

afternoon went find job first..go agency with ah ber then go library search for newspaper..as in job..haha..but ended up theres nothing..knew it..all requires exp...i felt like working in kbox..but sis say dun want, not safe =(..

night went orchard hotel meet my classmates..n i initially sit in a sofa seat at lv 2..but ruoqi came n save me..haha..but smuggling me inside..around the time wehre its ending..then end le..take photos..=)..dropped my bangle twice when taking photo..so paiseh..too big!..n thanks ar, cy push me!=( n ct gave me a elephant keychain..hah

hmm...then end le..discuss abit..then go zouk instead of butter fact., at first i abit =(, but then act. ok..dont really dare to dance cause too many familier ppl le..haha..n too may ppl there..so squeezy..=(..but still fun =)..drank half or 1/4 of the beer..not nice one..so bitter..haha.."bacardi" nicer..not so bitter..at there till around 2.30am?..tired..haha..then went to meet sally, eloise n rachel at coffeeclub first, chatchat about sally's bf, friends n relations..haha..sally u better be careful hor i warn u!!..then after that we ( me n sally) go buy more beer drink..haha, sit at some place then drink n chat..eeyer..i still not high after drinking..haha..means i can drink more next time..=)..daddy also dont mind one..he super open minded..when i reached home today at 6.30 am..then dad just say " u drink beer ar?"..then i say ya..then he like " orh"..haha..then asked me fun ant..so it means i can stay out as much as i could..haha..i know dad trust me n give me that freedom..thanks daddy! =) ..

eyes now very tired..but body very energetic..haa..but i think i cant sleep..

super look forward to genting trip..i want go kbox..so i shoulf fix my voice asap..no sore throats!..=) heh
good nite..or good morning..first time stayed out late..haha..more to come =) bb!

2009-12-07T07:36:00.000-08:00

i think i mermory loss..if i not wrong..i ytd..should be with sally..haha..forgot!..should be shopping?..i think i brought alot of clothes..but all end up wear le not comfortable de..=(..went bugis street..but i brought a bag i like alot..nicenice!..hehe..i miss the taka that jap. noodle!..=(..better than koba de..

seeing ppl shopping for prom stuff..haha..heng i not going prom..so troublesome!..shoes..dress..hair..make up..waa..but going post prom also fan..weird when its only me going to meet them after prom..n i have to wear like..hmm..i also dunno ok ant..haha..

regret saying butterfly factory!! =( so bad

today..went shopping with limin n cy..for their prom heels..=) that they found it..walked around far east..i m amazed by how they can walk with such high heels..so scary..i think i will fall immed., haha..cant find my jacket! =(..

aa..din put in effort to find job yet..haha!..but will find soon.seriously..haha..later really no job i will cry..n daddy will nag..haha

k thats all..bb! =)

2009-12-03T22:02:00.000-08:00

i m jealous of turtles..they can hide themselves..

i want to be strong to protect them, so i have to be strong, or stronger =)
will contiune to hide till things end

bb =)

2009-12-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

hmm..the reasons for me to hide my blog gone..so here i m =), o.o maintaining 3 blogs =.=..hmm..longer posts in future =)..tired